Never posted this but had all intentions to, so here it is now. :)
All day I have been on the verge of those bursting tears with a huge knot in my throat. I finally lost it as I walked upstairs with my soon to be birthday girl to get her "pajammies" on. I wonder if it will be like this every year as I remember the moment we walked into Rex to have our baby, and every second beyond that. Over the last 3 years we have had some long days, no dought, but our daughter has truly shown us what love is. I have never felt such a deep love as I do with both of my girls. I feel as if my life really began when my doctor handed me, after 19 hours of labor, our baby girl. In that moment she gave me all my answers so many events that I have questioned from the past, like getting my heart broken, choosing a different path in school when I was half way done, not making the "c" I needed to make when I had straight A's, and how can we be pregnant when we are so unprepared. ( I know these things seem like such small "events" to everyone else but theses things were life altering for me and as a planner, they rocked my world.) Now I know all these things happened because God knew, way better than me, I was meant to be a Mother. My little love bug gave me an unbelievely amazing gift that keeps me moving every second of my day. So as we grow closer to her third birthday my heart grows and grows with so much love, not only for her my for the man whom I call my husband, for her sister, for my parents, for my best friend, for all my new friends, for life, for the little things that seem so big, and the things that seem so small but are truely big.
